life’s not a paragraph

i had my final in-person interview today for city year! now i have to wait until march 16th to find out if i am accepted into the program or not!

i think it went pretty well. i am fairly confident that i answered everything with a thought-out, sensible answer. it’s kind of scary that this was the last step, and now i just have to wait, but i know i did my best so whatever will be will be. but i couldn’t stop the thought from crossing my head: what if i don’t get it? there goes the only semblance of a post-graduation plan that i had!
i am going to try to stop myself from thinking like this though, because after i can’t really do anything until i found out the answer. and whatever it ends up being, i’ll plan from there. one step at a time, kaela.

this was kind of my first real interview though. i didn’t really have to do a formal interview for my internship (it was over the phone) and most of the previous interview’s i have done for jobs were pretty casual. for the first time, i wore a business blazer (which was very strange for me– i’m not a blazer girl like my roommates are), and i went into it with a more professional mindset. i was pretty nervous. this is what i am going to have to do all the time in order to get a job? you’d think we would’ve been able to come up with a less intimidating way of hiring people by now… but i guess the nerves are good. they keep you on your toes, and ready for whatever might be coming. i’ve gotten a lot better at this sort of thing — talking to strangers, thinking on my feet and being comfortable doing so — since coming to college. if i can thank my graphic design education and my work study job for anything, it’s my newly developed skill of public speaking. the great thing is (my mom reminded me of this right before i stepped inside the headquater doors) that it’s really only the initial “hi! how are you?”-handshake moment that is the most nerve wracking. once you get past that and start talking (really talking, not small talk), the nerves start to go away, and you just do what you’re there to do. i think it’s the anticipation of the unknown that is so unsettling, not the actual process. if you’re confident in yourself and whatever you’re interviewing for, whether it be for a graphic design job or a coffee shop job, you just have to be honest and answer the questions as best you can. you can’t do anything more than that.